thanks for the memories.

It's no secret that I get pretty lonely out here in the big city. As much as I love the hustle and bustle of Toronto, and the constant excitement that this wonderful city brings, there is just no replacement for the faces that I left behind in Saskatoon. After spending a couple weeks at home this summer, it only reminded me how lucky I am to have such an amazing family, both immediate, and extended (my friends). I also have great friends in Toronto as well, that have welcomed me to the city, and shown me some pretty crazy times, and some pretty great adventures. I have been very torn about where I see myself in the next year. I feel like I came to Toronto chasing a dream that I thought I couldn't find anywhere else, but I have absolutely no idea what it is. Leaving makes me feel incomplete because I feel like whatever it is I was searching for, I haven't found yet, but staying in Toronto makes me long for the easy days with the people that love me most. The people who know everything about me, and still love me no matter what. Either way I will have regrets. Either way I will ask myself, "what if".

Yesterday, I stumbled across a quote on my friend's Facebook page that said, "Someday we will be nostalgic for now", and I just loved it. It's true. We spend so much time regretting our pasts, or contemplating our futures, that we often forget that the greatest moment of all is the one we are living in right now. Lately, I have noticed myself becoming increasingly more bitter towards people, and situations in my life, and that is not at all the way that I want to be remembered. I need to stop focusing on negativity that is out of my control, becomes it makes me sound angry and brings people down. I need to redirect my focus on the great things that I have, such as friends that will do anything for me, and are always up for a good time. A job that makes me excited to go to everyday. And a city that, temporary or not, brings more excitement and adventure to my life than I could have ever thought possible.

So I'm turning over a new leaf. Thanks to everyone I love for putting up with me.